That, however, is not the way of life you learned when you heard about Christ and were taught in him accordance with the truth that is in Jesus. You were taught, with regard to your former way of life, to put off your old self, which is being corrupted by its deceitful desires; to be made new in the attitude of your minds; and to put on the new self, created to be like God in true righteousness and holiness.
let the good times roll
Jesus replied, “What is impossible with man is possible with God.” || Luke 18:27
"I’m too tired"
Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest || Matthew 11:28
The Lord replied, “My Presence will go with you, and I will give you rest.” || Exodus 33:14
"I can’t do this"
But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. || 2 Corinthians 12:9
He will call on me, and I will answer him; I will be with him in trouble, I will deliver him and honor him. || Psalm 91:15
"I don’t know where to go"
Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight. || Proverbs 3:5-6
"I can’t do it"
I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. || Philippians 4:13
I therefore, a prisoner for the Lord, urge you to walk in a manner worthy of the calling to which you have been called, with all humility and gentleness, with patience, bearing with one another in love.
God loves you, nothing will ever change that. But it will change you.
It took me longer than it should have to come back and re-embark on my spiritual walk. It hasn’t been easy in the slightest, but God has always been faithful. Through the difficult times that ultimately resulted with me completely giving up religion altogether - God has still always been faithful, always provided. Perhaps not in the way that I wanted or had anticipated, but always in one way or another, even with blessings that I received but never asked for.
What I’ve learned through this broken walk and sporadic journey is how great and beautiful God’s love is, the kind that always welcomes you back with open arms no matter how many times you’ve walked away. The kind of love that doesn’t know if you’ll love back, but loves you unconditionally regardless of whether or not you do.
In the midst of hardship, I’ve found incredible insight and wisdom in these two quotes in particular:
That’s how you can tell that you’re filling yourself with the wrong things. You use a lot of energy, and in the end, you feel emptier and less comfortable than ever.
Focusing on my guilt, my shame, my sin, is still just keeping the focus on me. I’d still be in the mindset that I (my feelings, my efforts) are what makes this thing go, instead of God. Focusing on God means letting go of those things.
When we’re hurt, disappointed, angry - it’s something we can and should give up to God. And in doing so, we’ll find peace and more importantly we’ll be at peace. Day by day, I find myself growing more into the person I want to become. And it has been altogether exciting, encouraging, invigorating, and joyful to mold myself into who I want to be and see God and His love do a work in my life. Every single one of us has room to grow, to be better, to be happier. We are not what has happened to us, but we are what we choose to become.
So in the words of Paulo Coelho, stop being who you were and become who you are.